Thursday, May 29, 2008
Becoming a SAHM
I am getting nervous. I think I can do it all. Right now I work full time and take of most of the things at home, of course with the help of hubby, most of the time. I am imagining, in a week and a half, that I will have time to go for a walk or two everyday and play lots with the kids, keep the house clean, cook, and just all around have lots of time to get everything done. If I can get it all done now while I work full time how can I not when I am not working. I don't know though. I am starting to get worried. I am remembering Brandon's first two weeks where Kris and I were both home and really he was easy, ate and slept and we just took turns, but the days flew by and we got like nothing done. I am worried it will be like that. I will get up start to get stuff done and the day will be over. What if I don't get any more done than now and we just have way less money? What if I don't get to spend that much more time with the kids with all the extra housework and stuff and then its not all that great. I have been reading this blog called "True Mom Confessions" and I read all these women saying how they either hate staying home or spend all day online, which I could totally see me doing, or they get nothing done. Hopefully that won't be me. Hopefully I will love it and get lots done and the kids will always behave and it will be glorious. Ha Ha Ha, hopefully I just don't kill them. I guess I should just not worry and see what happens. I am trying to not get my hope up and expectations going but I can't help it. I envision spending the days at the water park and the beach while finding lots of time to play and clean and hopefully cook. We will see I guess. 7 days of work left YAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I am sooooo ready for no stress.